so i'm leaving on wednesday morning to go to spain for a month, and i'm not really looking forward to it.

it's hard to explain the emotions running around inside of me right now....i feel so far from God lately. it's been so tough to open up the Word and read, and everywhere i turn, i just see myself sinning. its so hard not to focus on the sins i commit, but to focus on my loving God who has already forgiven me, and to accept His help to overcome them! they are a huge roadblock on my path to Him, and He gives me little ladders or doors to get over or through it, but i feel like a bird caught in a house....the sliding door is open, but i keep flying into the closed window.

it scares me to think i'm going to be away for a whole month, with little one-on-one time with other believers. i'm so afraid that i'm going to shame the name of God...pray that my actions and my words do nothing to defame the name of Christ! pray that i stay strong, and i find no reason to NOT open up my bible each day! that i pray without ceasing! and that I don't just do it while i'm there...that i do it here too.......

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♪♫melina♫♪