its been a tough afternoon. explaining to my dad (at work no less) why i won't be home for christmas. having to tell him that i'm not going to utah because i can't afford school & rent & utah all at once. then realizing i shouldn't have mentioned not going to utah because now i have to work that week i formerly had off. booooo.

and, to top it all off, im kinda sad that i'm missing the yuletide ball. i mean...i think i'd been to 3 dances in my life, and i hated all of them, and then went to yuletide 2 years ago and had so much fun. its kinda just a bummer to not go. last time, i asked cody to go with me and we had a blast w/ sam and brittany and bean and trent. now...well. yeah enough said.

im just in a melancholy mood. i don't think i spelled that correctly. bummer.