i'm beyond understanding this.

i'm in a really tough spot.
i have to keep chosing grace, peace,patience, and love over being completely pissed off...not even pissed off. full of rage. one of my biggest struggles is with my temper. I am very passionate and emotionally-driven, and so its hard for me to think rationally when someone becomes so ridiculous and hard-headed. proverbs says that a man who doesn't listen to rebuke is stupid, and that a person who lets another continue in unrighteousness is acursed. it's true, and it's scary. when Christians let them continue on in their sin because no one else stands up for the truth..it makes you sad.

i'm going to spend some time reading and in prayer...so please keep me in your prayers (whoever you are) that I don't dishonor God with the way I deal with this situation.

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p.s. finally, what i've been praying that would happen has happened and the matter is finally being taken before church leaders. if you had ideas about what the situation possibly was, you might have been wrong in your assumptions. so if you're reading this...don't worry about it. i'm pretty sure it doesn't involve you :)