from my higschooler

HEY! Wow! Lots has happend actually! Wow...well lets see where to start....hmm...okay, well i moved out here...a few days later enrolled in school, and it was the most traumatizing thing that ive ever gone through! A lot of the people were very rude and mean...one of the kids in my science class made fun of me because i am a Christian (even tho, ironically, so was he, or at least thats what he said). I met some very nice people as well, but they were all very worldly. there were so many people i thought could maybe be good friends, untill i began talking to them and they told me how high they were that weekend, and what they did with thier boyfriend. After only one day of school i was stressed beyond reason! And i went home, and ended up getting the flu and didnty get out of bed for three days! The next week only got worse! I was almost compleatly alone, and everyehere i turned was more trouble...And oh it was aweful! Finnally wednesday night came, and i went to youthgroup at a local church. It was a definite improvement, but still very intimidating. One very nice girl, who was both homeschooled and two years older then me, made me feel more welcome then anyone else in this entire town. i was releived, but i stil had the issue of finding someone at school to hang with. At the youthgroup, i met a girl who seemed very nice and was my age and attended my school, and asked her if i couldn sit with her at lunch the next day. She agreed, but i was absolutely horrified to see the croud she hung out with! The next day i sat alone with my brother instead,n and actually had the most enjoyable lunch since moving! That weekend i seriously talked to my parents, and begged them to homeschool me, for i was very worried about the croud out here and the influence it might have on me, and eventually they gave in. Iven been homeschooled for almost two weeks now, and for the most part LOVE it! Ive gotten so much closer to God, now that i dont have all the distractions of school, peer pressure, friends, or shopping (because they dont have much of it right here, and have only been shopping once with my mom for her birthday) and am extreemly happy! Im learning, that life isnt stable, things change, people pass on (i attended my first funeral out here as well for my great uncle in Las Vegas last weekend)and that only God is always going to be there for me. I had been so consumed with the world, and so dependednt on it, but i see things in an entirely new light now! Ive also bee spending MUCH more time in prayer and in the word. My family has also gotten closer as well. Now that me and my older brother are homeschooled together, we spend much more time together, and have gotten much closer to him. I also have to share a room with my sister again, so ive gotten closer to her as well.Ive even gotten closer to my little bro, since im home MUCH more now. My family, now that were not all running around all day, has begun doing family dinners, and we almost NEVER eat out any more, as opposed to before when we almost always did! ive gotten closer to my mom since she is now teaching me art, which im improving in quite a bit! And i see my parents much more now that they work out of the house, and they teach me all day. At youthgroup, i still only have that one friend, of the very first girl, who was two years older then me, but im cool with that, because she is the nicest person ive met since moving out here! I have been freaking out a little bit...i spend a lot of time at the house..i dont see people...and i relly lik to be with people so its been ETREEMLY hard on me! I only see Brianna (the girl frm youthgroup) once a week....and she..other my sisters friend who happens to be our neghbor, and is five years younger then me, is the only person i talk to. Its been hard, but ive been trying to make the best of it. I guess im learing how much i should tresure my frinds, because im SO incredible blessed to have such great friends! Im also learning that God has a plan for me, there was a reason for my being out here, and ive learned so much, and hopefully will continue to. I still cant wait until i come out to visit (im coming out over spring break for a week! Dont tel anyone, cuz i want it to b a surprise!!!!!). Oh and i dont even hav my ipod to help me survuive anymore!!! (it got stolen a week before i moved!). I guess Gor really is trying to humble me and make me dependend on him rather then things of the world like friends, shopping, ipods, ect. and i geuss its working! Amazingly, i think i am nearly fully cured of my depression tho ironcally! Ive in some respects been happier since moving, since iver found true happiness in things of the Lord, rather then momentary happiness of things of this world! Wow, i guess God is really using this to teach me somethin! Im hoping that someday i might move back, but if not, i know that God has an ultimate plan for my life, and i really just need to trust him! Sorry this email was so long, i justy had so much to say! I hope you all are doing well back in Simi as well! =) God Bless! Hope to see you soon!!!!!! YAY! Hope to hear back from you as well! BYE! TTYL!